Suddenly *Not So* Single Journey

Happiness is seeing signs…

Author: thenicknick

And this one came at me like this big fast slap in the face.

This sign was all…stop!  Think about what you’re doing.

I know what I’m doing…now.

I have been working on writing all these articles and I really haven’t enjoyed them.  I have been writing these reviews for companies on Fiverr and I really haven’t enjoyed it.  At the same time, I don’t expect to like every aspect of my life.  I don’t expect to enjoy every minute of my work.  Only…maybe I should.

Because…I really should.

So, I’m going to quit.  I have to quit.  Fiverr is counterproductive to my future.

Seriously.

I waste so much time trying to put out content that takes up and wastes more time than the money it earns me.  And there are better opportunities out there for me to make money.  So, I’m going to make the most of those.

Starting…now.

See, my computer has been on the fritz.  I’m blaming a virus that hijacked me from Facebook.  Don’t tell S.  He hates my quality time with Facebook.  And I don’t blame him.  He is needy…which is the same as saying…he is male.

All I know is that I was writing away and my computer froze and when I turned it back on, the black screen of death was replaced by the gray plague.  And following the plague…a warning that I needed to hit the repair key. So, I did.  Only it repaired to an earlier date, an uglier date, a date I didn’t have Microsoft Office on my computer.  Now I don’t again.

And it wouldn’t be so bad if my computer guy would call me, but we are having trouble meeting up these days.  And so, here I am, unable to write.  I can still blog, since that’s all online.  And I can still write for Yahoo!, even though I have recently been a bit lax on that.  I’m thinking that I’m just supposed to take a break from Fiverr and that writing.  I think I’m supposed to focus on work and finishing my novels, since that’s what I was supposed to quit my job to do.  And I have way more to finish.

So, thank you virus and system restore.  You made what could have been a very challenging decision…simple.  No more $4 payouts for an hour of work.  I made more than that 12 years ago at Burger King.  And I sure deserve more than that now.

And I thought I would feel guilt, but instead, I feel happy and relaxed.  That’s how I know I’m making the right choice.  I’m good.  I’m better than I have been.  And I won’t be stressed about not making deadlines anymore.  Whew.  It takes so little sometimes for me to find my happy.

This will give me time to focus on what matters…Kenna, Keenan, S, our business, and my novels.  One door closes.  Another door opens.  Life goes on.

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