Suddenly *Not So* Single Journey

I wish I could relax…

Author: thenicknick

But I can’t.

It’s one of those things that I’m not really good at.  And because of that, you’d think I’d be thinner, but I’m not.  See, I try to sometimes do…nothing, but then my mind starts running through all the things I should be doing…and I feel compelled to do one of those things.  Even now, I’m thinking of things I should be doing around the house other than blogging.  And if I keep looking, I’ll find them.

Take last night for example.  We were sitting on the couch after eating.  HE was relaxing.  And then I thought…hmmm, I promised I’d make his some more Chex Mix.  I can do that while we watch television. Only, you know that I couldn’t sit down once I started.  It was fifteen minutes in between stirs.  And so I leaned, I cleaned, I entertained, but I didn’t sit.

Then, even after the Chex Mix was done, I had to be told to sit by Laura.  She came over for ‘ritas and a little girl time.  Let me tell you how that worked out.  Oh, it didn’t.  So, we have a rain check for a truly relaxing quality girl time.  We deserve it.  And I’m lucky because I know that HE would never begrudge me it.  In fact, he encourages it.

Well, the day hasn’t been much better.  See, I woke up at 4:30am and couldn’t go back to sleep.  Rather than lie there, I decided to get my day started.  And with all those extra hours, you’d think I’d have accomplished tons, right?  Umm yeah.  About that.

I watched Hachiko while I worked on the computer, since it had to be returned.  My options were return it on time without watching it, return it late, or watch it before 5am.  I watched it.  And I have to tell you, while HE teases me for my movie tears, he would have been downright disturbed to see me watching this movie.  It was beyond movie tears.  I was movie sobbing and movie hiccuping and movie sniffling.  By the time the movie was over, I had gone through half a roll of toilet paper on my nose and could almost ring out the sleeves of HIS Nautica sweatshirt that I have pretty much claimed.  Yup.  Dog movies will do it to me every time.

And since I was already in a bad place, I decided to finish the very end of The Time Traveler’s Wife.  By then I was numb, and apparently my tear ducts had dried up, so I only squeaked out a solitary tear at the very end.  *sigh*

Then it was on to make breakfast for us before we went about our respective days.  I cleaned some, went for a walk, came back and cleaned some more.  Finished cleaning…only because the vacuum hose was clogged with Bishop hair…and showered before running my errands.

By the time I returned, it was 2:30pm.  Where had my day gone?  I like a clean house, but I hate spending half a day doing it.  And I really hate cleaning.  It’s a necessary evil.  It’s one of those things that you can never get too excited about finishing because it is a task that must be repeated ad nauseum for THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.  Well, crap.

At least the house was clean and I was clean and there was a new mat for the front door and a new plant in one of my pots so I felt like I had accomplished SOMETHING before HE returned.  Baby steps.  That’s how I’m going to get everything done.  Baby steps.

Well, at least once this has posted it will mean it’s Sunday Funday.  I need it.  I need one day a week that I can relax without feeling guilty…unless Ed lends me the belt sander and we pick a color for the bench.  *sigh*

Quick Karma:

• identify one thing you can change about your life today..no matter how small…and do it
  

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